I know you will think I’m overreacting. It’s because my boyfriend broke up with me. But it’s not really just that; it’s that I cannot maintain relationships. I’ve been in many relationships and they all end the same way. I get too jealous and angry and they break up with me. I have a shitty family life, absent parents, siblings left the home and messed up their own lives.. I have NO ONE close to me. I don’t have friends. I can’t trust anyone. I feel so alone. I’ve seen psychologists and it didn’t help. I don’t see the point in living if I cannot maintain relationships or even friendships. I don’t want to be alone. But nothing works out. I am struggling to change myself and it seems impossible. I feel like the best decision is to just die. I have nothing and no one to live for, and I don’t care to live for myself. What’s the point of life if you have no one to share it with? I don’t care for success or a career if I go home everyday to no one but myself.
Update: @henry – well, that’s kind of why I’ve gone to psychologists. Obviously it’s a problem and I never said it wasn’t. Thanks for your unhelpful answer.
well, young lady, with your kind permission, I humbly guess you’re young enough to be my daughter, to begin with…
let’s say : pretty much far beyond enough for your words here to shake and thrill my heart and soul….
you’re – still- at the utmost age of flourishing in evety way-on one hand- and a difficult age, too, on the other hand….
it’s an age of various changes, of defining values, customes, attitudes, identity….
an age of an endless ”thirst of absolute” , of purity , of a great generosity and of a great ( not so great- as a matter of fact ) loneliness….
and it sounds to me you’re depressed and / or traumatised deeply and significantly / severely….
you might definitely need the professional help of a psychologist or so, in real life, in your area, someone skilled in treating people of your age…
you certainly need all the tender, love and care you can get….
and beyond this….
something has to change in your life…something essential….
your attitude , too… yes. young lady….
it’s NOT just about your striving to control and refrain your getting overduly jealous….
it’s about your doing – in the shorter and longer run- your best to boost your self- esteem and self – confidence…to learn to love and respect yourself alongwith respecting others… yeah….
you’ve got to understand you’re one of a kind: NEVER- EVER was there ANYONE just like you, nor EVER AGAIN could there be such…
that’s why your life and quality of life are holy enough shrines to thoroughly be protected, whatever it takes….
please, refrain, repeat, REFRAIN from ANY form of even trying to hurt yourself or take your own life – whatsoever….
heed the fact that NO ONEand NOTHING is worth your paying the price of your life….
heed also the fact that such a ”try”, even a ”failed” one – can leave you both physicaly and further mentally disabled for good….
you obviously deserve much better than this….
you sound to me a person of high sensitivity on one hand, but highly sensible and smart as well…
that’s why it’s just about time for you to fully and finely understand that – whatever your problem/s may be -going for the LOUSIEST on Earth permanent solution to whatever temporary ( yeah ) problem/s – by your even trying to take your life is such horrific an idea – it has to clearly be and stay OUT of the question!
yeah… inasmuch as we want to live and stay human beings….
in my humble opinion – it would be much normal,cheaper and valuable ( in terms of preserving human values ) to do your best to change- the best possible way – whatever has to be changed in your life, mind- set, whatever… rather than your even trying to ruin your life…yeah….
just because of your family life as you depicted it and because your feeling deceived and abandoned or so … DOESN’T mean your life and its value in itself , and your youth and your physical health ( I suppose so ) and your right to happiness are nul and void…. NO WAY!
And your life – as it is/ was so far- DOES NOT ” confer” you the …chilling right to EVER let your past or so ruin your future: it’s a both physical and moral luxury NO ONE of us could EVER afford:neither yourself, nor we as a public….
social skills… of a living human being… can be changed… improved… whatever….
and wretched. miserable life terms of ANYONE of us could change and improve at random…on ONE condition: that we stay alive….
”at the end of the day” the ONE person in charge for your happiness ( yet a matter of definition) is YOU…
please, maturely act accordingly….
each and every time you feel hopeless, worthless, helpless etc…. please recall the wise words of that Rabbi who lived somewhere in Eastern Europe about 200 years ago : ” the day you were born is the day when The Lord decided that this world can’t exist/ function without you”
stay forever- blessed and kept safe and proof from all harm…